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When I was a kid I didn’t think much about what I wanted to be when I grew up.  I was interested in playing Star Wars or GI Joe with my boy friends down the street.  I played Barbies with my sister and best friend.  At one time I guess I wanted to be an archeologist and discover Nefertitti, I was really intrigued by Ancient Egypt for some reason.  I loved to draw and imagine and play make believe.  But now I’m an adult.  With a family.  And I still have no idea what I want to do with my life.

I keep on waiting to get some sort of sign, to be reminded of what I should be doing and where I should be doing it.  In my 15 or so years of working in a professional setting I never particularly felt like I was contributing to anything major.  I never felt like I was really “a part of something”.  I feel like that’s what I want now though.

But what do you do when you’re “all grown up” and you’ve got a degree (or two) in something that you don’t even think that you want to do anymore?  Do you start over?  Do you work your way up with the 20 somethings as your competition?  And how about if you’ve been out of work for (gulp) five years and you don’t know what it takes to be successful anymore?  Or maybe I should just become one of the white suited street sweepers at Disneyland?

I don’ t know what the answer is, but I feel like I’m running out of time.  I would dream big but I don’t even know what to dream about………

“A dream is a wish your heart makes………..”Image